Today, I celebrate my breakdown!

It is not easy dusting off yourself knowing that you hurt, you feel the pain, and you failed, among the many mistakes you've made in your life. You felt that you've reached the point where you can't go on anymore and that everything is lost.

I feel the same way today. I am devastated and I feel so alone. It's like all my life have been thrown away and that there is nothing left to do about it. I let my tears fall, I let the emotions flow and then slowly, I let it go. It's hard, really hard. It's not easy letting go of something so important to you, something that is a part of your life. It's hard breaking away from a lifetime dream that ended up as something else than what you want it to be.

It is never easy. But it is doable, by choice, it is possible. Only you can move forward. It is a decision you have to take for yourself. I move forward because I know that in every breakdown there is a breakthrough. So I celebrate now, because the only way next when you're so way down is up.

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